Hi all — I am a 4th year (as of 1/1) and I am terrified of taking calls by myself. I am a corporate associate and my practice is approximately 65% agency finance and 35% M&A (with a few random projects in the mix).
I think the split of my practice makes it difficult for me to become an expert on any one thing. As a result, I feel as though I am falling behind.
In my mind, I expect a 4th year would be taking substantive negotiation calls on their own (or at least leading) and I feel as though I am wholly unqualified to do that. Granted, I am risk averse and a little anxious as a baseline, so I may be drowning in a glass of water.
As context, I think I am a good project manager and my drafting skills are decent, so I am not all bad!
Is this normal? How can I improve?