I’ve thought I hit burnout many times in this job but this time is different. I’m so unmotivated and unfocused I don’t even know if I feel that bad anymore. I feel as though I’m ruining a reputation I worked hard to build, but I just can’t seem to summon up the energy to care anymore even as my mistakes get worse, more frequent, and less excusable. Somehow I was sharper billing 250 hour months at the start of the year than I am now at 100. I’m not in a position to go in house just yet, but at the same time don’t feel I’ve been learning much. I’m expending too much energy just trying to do the bare minimum to stay afloat, so at best I’m stagnating and at worst, I’m becoming a shittier lawyer.
Has anyone else been here? How did you recover? I have my first vacation in 2 years coming up but I’m worried going and being offline will only make the people who are disappointed with me now even more annoyed.