My wife and I lost our (unborn) child today unexpectedly. Everything was going great with all results showing strong and healthy (second trimester). She went in for a routine checkup this morning. But they couldn't find the heartbeat. Looks like the baby died today or yesterday. We don't know why, and the shock is probably the biggest factor in this.
Going home, I thought I would come up with something to distract us this weekend, so I bought tickets from a FB group I am in for a local game, and promptly got scammed. I guess I am not in top thinking shape. What a day.
Meanwhile, I have a large deal closing Friday, numerous other deals in the pipeline with clients bitching about where their shit is, and various other matters that no one can handle but me.
I don't know what the lesson is, but, aside from what Aeschylus said, that "wisdom comes through suffering", it is probably something about the fact that this, and any other, job, goes on and life is hard sometimes.
I know that this is not special to law. I know there is good in the suffering, if I can figure it out. But it is hard. And sometimes, the contrast of life and this job does seem wildly contrasted. Maybe it is because we are not blue collar and we don't think about normal life (i.e., it is not reality to make rich people richer by fighting over earnouts, net working capital, and holdbacks).
And yet, I guess, that is a lot better than what a lot of folks face. In any event, life is hard. But we have it better than a lot of folks. So, I guess I should shut up and get back to it. K,thx,bye, please fix asap.
EDIT to add: I just want to sincerely thank everyone who commented or reached out. I can't express how much it means. I posted this late last night (admittedly after a few drinks) and did not think it would get a lot of feedback. But almost immediately I saw very kind comments. I guess the late working hours is a universal thing here. But seriously, it genuinely helped to know there are a lot of folks out there who both kind and helpful. I will try to interact/read every comment, and also respond to DMs. But if i miss anyone, i just wanted say a global thank you to you all!
PPS: my team and firm has been amazing. Unfortunately, some stuff sits with me so there is no way around it. But honestly, the kind words here really does help.