I am a junior who is beginning to believe I am simply not as good at my job as everyone else in my class, and that partners only work with me if they have to. I think this based on experiences I’ve had on matters as well as what my peers tell me. Some examples:
- I am on a matter and was initially looped into weekend work, but then was dropped from the chain and not asked to do anything; also not forwarded end work product that I played large role in assembling despite others in my year being looped in
- I have not been staffed on anything new or asked by the partners I work closely with to take on new matters. My peers tell me that they are struggling to figure out which matters to take on and which to decline. I have not had this issue and, despite my hours being solid (usually between 50-65 per week), I do not think they are as high as others in my class, and I certainly don’t get to “pick and choose” the matters I take on
- partners are protective of other associates, but not me, and seem to actively want them on multiple matters, are fostering their growth, etc
How do I stop spiraling about this, and should I be concerned? Why would I initially be asked to do something, and then dropped?
Sincerely,
A very anxious junior associate