I swear I a normal person. Outside of this context I know I'm not awkward, I can hold a conversation, all of the associates whose deals I have been staffed on like me and I have had a number of lunches and coffees with partners and associates that were fun and not awkward. But I just seem totally unable to handle the large events. There's something about walking into a room full of people I don't know that is so intimidating to me and I've left two of the large summer events early because I find it so awkward and it's easy for me to do so because my class is so large. Unfortunately my office mate has another law school friend and seems uninterested in going to any of the events with me, so no wingman there. I would ask other people to lunch but so far I have had a lunch with a partner or associate for 9 days in a row (i am so full). Now it's snowballing to the point where I feel like every other summer has an event 'buddy' and i'm getting anxious about the idea of attending them. Ugh. I know this is immature of me and I will ultimately suck it up and attend all of these events, just wondering if anyone can relate or give advice as to what to do at this point.