I am really in need of some genuine advice. I'm at a very prestigious firm in a small, niche group (which I wanted). This should be my dream job. But my mental health is the worst it's ever been. I won't go into details in case it's identifiable (I'm paranoid I know), but there's a lot of very overt favoritism on the team and generally it's just clear that I'm not a good fit/it's not a good fit for me. Things have really reached rock bottom as I haven't been sleeping at all - just staying up thinking about work - and I feel so isolated I've been crying in the bathroom every day when no one can see. I'm in therapy and on meds, but it isn't doing much right now. The problem is I'm not even barred yet so I feel completely trapped here, or else I would leave in a heartbeat. Basically, does anyone have any advice on how i get through this? Going to the office makes me feel completely ill and because my team is so small, there's no one really to talk to about it. I feel like I'm dying. Please give realistic advice if you can