On holiday, a senior associate just emailed to correct and intervene and help out on a non-billable team knowledge work. And the threat mode or whatever NPD/BPD anxiety anger spiral kicked in again, started smashing my work phone and laptop and then I weirdly slapped myself. A good reflection of my recent daily struggle. Like I’ve never done this before and have been pretty chill all my life. Shocked by the person I am becoming. So yes bye guys, I’m leaving this shit behind. No student loan so goodbye.