I Messed Up - Posting for Advice but Mostly to self flagellate
Dear Diary:
Recently went inhouse to a client.
Have a major transaction in process.
Have been working way more than I would have wanted going inhouse.
On Fri a board member calls me out of nowhere and makes me drop everything and work on some stuff for him - as I am doing this he is sending me texts constantly re "ETA".
On Sat morning I wake up with an email re more stuff to do.
I lose it.
I tell CEO that the board member is grinding me like I was a first year associate at [biglaw firm] before I knew which partners to avoid. This is a pretty big exaggeration - it was inconvenient and annoying, but nowhere near as bad as what I described.
CEO talks to board member.
board member asks me for a call so he can apologize - I assume CEO simply told him to lay off a bit.
Turns out CEO repeated verbatim what I said to the board member.
While board member was apologetic, he was also clearly surprised at how I described the situation. I explained to him that I was really just fed up with being overworked and venting generally re the lack of work/life balance I was promised - it wasn't personal (this is true).
We are all good, but I fear that the board member likely will resent me (rightfully so).
Just kicking myself for being so stupid - I think I got too comfortable with my law firm situation where I could kind of do and say whatever I wanted without consequence because I was really good at my job.
Going back to being an employee and subordinate might be harder than I thought. Mostly I'm just mad at myself.
I guess my plan is to just work hard and not complain and hope ppl forgive me because I'm good at my job.