I decided I’m going to quit today. That’s why I’m smiling. I’m not sure if I will lateral, go in house, or go be a bartender, but I’m definitely leaving my firm. It just became very clear to me that either I cannot handle the time requirements of this job, or that my firm is fucking ridiculous and is a sweatshop disguised as a lifestyle firm.
It’s relieving, in a way.
EDIT: I’m in the best mood I’ve had in two years. I woke up this morning feeling like a million bucks. I have hope for my future again. I see the light. This was the right choice.