I just realized this. I want to enjoy life not eat "eat bitter," an expression a Chinese associate recently share about how she thrives here. I'm bitchmade. Come to think of it Patrick Bateman was too, that's why he did no work all day. He spent his day exercising, eating well, taking care of himself and listening to his Walkman, a pampered life. That's how you know he didn't do any of those things. Bitchmade men couldn't hurt a fly. I'm bitchmade and I need to find another life.