Subject line says it all. I’m a mid level who has only received positive reviews and have always hit my hours. At a firm that continues to do mass layoffs + terminates people for any small thing.
I’m increasingly spiraling to such a degree that I can no longer focus on my work and find myself having to take a million breaks during the day to calm myself. The environment is extremely toxic (objective reality/ mass consensus) but a large amount of gaslighting is constantly occurring and the firm markets itself as a lifestyle firm which makes associates feel even worse about themselves/ feel like they’re at fault when the firm has huge systemic issues.
How do I deal with this? Seems absurd to quit / lateral when I’ve been told that I’m in a different boat than all these other associates who’ve been terminated, but I know that isn’t entirely true and can be dropped from one moment to the next.
I wish more people at my firm would speak out so that the firm could begin getting scared of reputational harm…but somehow, firm leadership has everything so well under control. I really don’t understand it.
Help.