throwaway account. Has this job ever made you feel like you would be better off not alive anymore? Associate in an extremely horrible environment, have had to put up wth so much shit, and now I'm being pushed out. I keep thinking of all the work I did to go to law school, pass the bar, and never thought the thing that would derail my career would be the horrible people at firm. It feels like it's going to be impossible to find a new big law job and that these people have ended my career. I keep trying to see a way out and convince myself that my career will stay on track but I know that's not the case and now all the work I've put in to get here is for nothing. Has anyone ever gone through something similar and what did you do?/
update: Wow thank you everyone for the comments and messages. I’m having a call with the benefits department head about how to use FMLA and they want to know more about what’s going on but also it sounds like the process is not difficult. They said I should check in with the partners I work with about what’s going on so they have a heads up and can plan for work coverage or they might have ideas to help that won’t impact the team so I’m dreading that but think I do need time away because things are bad and I don’t even recognize myself anymore.