I am a fourth year. My first three years of practice, I was very motivated to succeed and do well and never had issues locking in to get work done.
Lately, however, it has become clear that my firm does not plan to keep me around until partnership and I just feel like my superiors don’t really care about me and just see me as a paper pusher until they eventually push me out.
I am finding it hard to care, and hard to focus. I feel much slower in getting things done, and I have a hard time getting up the motivation to start projects or lock in to get them done quickly. I do have ADHD, but I feel it is affecting me significantly more now than it used to in this job. I’ve always been a motivated hard worker, so I don’t like this side of myself. Feel simultaneously bad about it, but unable to kick my butt back into gear.
I am considering lateraling to get a new start, but still just in interviews and haven’t secured a lateral job yet.
In the meantime, how can I get motivation back? Any tips for finding motivation when you feel like your job has an expiration date in the next couple of years?