I feel like im so rarely reaching a flow state in this job because i lack the substantive skills to meaningfully engage with the work and fully integrate myself into my tasks. I understand that this job is a function of repetitions, but i would like a bit more clarity into when (if at all) i'll progress to the point of being able to tackle things in a more fulfilling way.
I've never been an apathetic individual and i think that working hard is a valuable and fulfilling trait, but right now i feel a bit helpless.